Where do I go from here?

Diana called and told me about a position opening up in her division for an administrative assistant.  Its supposed to be decent pay and its close to a nice housing area.  Next week Luna and I are going to visit her so that I can take a look at a house for rent.  The pics were nice and it seems really roomy.  I am just not that happy that the kids don't want to go with us.  Jason might but I think he needs to begin his own life finally.

I really don't want to go but it's becoming apparent that I need to find something quickly.   Luna is still small so it wont be so bad.  But I will miss the kids.

I am hoping to see Bumble tomorrow night.  The way Diana is pushing me I might not come back.

I need a change anyway, and with the bills piling up I just don't know what else to do.

If I cant come up with $300 by Monday, Con Ed is disconnecting us.  I really haven't a clue where I am going to get that money.  I have never been this destitute.  I have always worked and lived comfortably and now its just getting worse.  Even with Jason working we just cant seem to catch up, and Hannah starting the fight and then pulling her disappearing act it's hurt us even more.

I know it can happen to anyone but it's freaking me out.  I don't have anyone to turn to.  My sister keeps pressuring me to find Luna's father and hit him up for child support but I swore I'd never do that.  I told her I don't know where he is.

I'm not taking him to court.  It just isn't happening.