You make me want to live

for you...

On Writing,,

It felt good to write last night.  After blogging something emo I usually can get out a whole chapter.

I feel accomplished today!

Mirena

Yes it was inserted....and then removed.  The NP that inserted it did a sloppy job and it was becoming painful.  I am going back next week to have it reinserted. 

What does this mean for me?  Well for up side is no more periods....though I hardly ever ger them anymore....but it will help with those cysts.  No more blood flow means no more growth and no more cramping.

It also means no unwanted pregnancies.  I can now relax when we are intimate.

It also means no more scrapings!  And no surgery!

Cant wait!

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see

hear

smell

touch

taste

How can you mend a broken heart...?

sometimes it still hurts.  I look at your face and it still hurts.  But then you smile and I forgive you.

I understand why you did what you had to do.

I understand that you felt you needed to be selfish.

I understand why you walked away.....

....but it doesnt mean I liked it.

...it doesnt mean I had to accept it...

...it doesnt mean I was ok.

I wasnt!

My heart ached every day for you.

I cried for you every single night...

and I yearned for you during the day...

and nothing...

There was nothing from you.

And then you were here again..

and you were different...

and then you were the same...

and I never forgot how it felt when you were here before...

and I missed it so much I accepted your return.

You were here again.

And the only thing I wanted was for you to love me.

I didnt even want an apology....

I never got one anyway...

But you were here again...

and I was happy again..

but you still dont love me....

and my heart is still breaking for you...

even though you're here again.