Valentine's Day

Not even a text.  That makes me so sad.  I even text him late last night and nothing.

How hard is it to just say hello?

I'm sure he'd tell me to move on.  I dont know how.  And I dont want to go through the depression that I suffered when I was pregnant ever again.

What am I going to do?

Here comes the rain again....

Don't know how I am going to get through this weekend.

Almost out of pampers, wipes, and everything else.  Dont get a paycheck til next friday, and no one to drive us to BJs to pick up supplies.

I am really not complaining....we always make do, but I am tired of the struggle.  

Luna's growing so fast and I cant even afford to buy her new clothes or shoes.

I'll probably have to sell what little jewelry I have left, and more than likely whatever Fryes I have that are sellable.

Sometimes I wish Ruben was still here...he'd never allow us to go through this alone.  He always took care of all of us from the day he met mom.

Not fair, I know...We will be ok eventually, but when?  

More snow and more tears and more worry....and all with a smile on my face for my little Princess.

Life...

Things are getting increasingly difficult.  I may have to go to court after all.  I hate doing it but I cant survive like this anymore. 

I may also have to ask Hannah and Jason to start looking for their own places soon.  I just cant afford them anymore :(