Christmas

Luna, Spike and I spent the afternoon in New Windsor with Dennis, Dali, Dano, Jorge, Yolie, and the kids. 
Kim showed up to drop Derek off....I was polite.

I missed my dad so much this year.  I hate that he never got to see Luna.

Neither Jason nor Hannah wanted to go.  Jason I think just wanted avoid gossip and criticism.  Hannah was probably still ngry with me.  She's always angry with me. 

At what point do you stop blaming others for your life and take responsibility for your own happiness?

It's just so sad.  I love my daughter, but I am tired of paying for past mistakes.  It's going to come to a head and I am going to have to make a decision to either smooth things over or let her go.

Luna asked for Bumble a few times yesterday.  When we got home she ran to his pic and started telling him about her day. 

Heartbreaking....


I'm back on Methyldopa.  The dr is pushing again to have those cysts and or my ovaries removed.  And I have to see a hand surgeon about the lump on my wrist.

I'm very tired.