It was one of those... where I change..... and I am in such emotional and physical pain, from the transformation. I usually welcome change, but lately it seems to be happening without notifying me first! Or asking permission....
I think I am in a dark place. I can feel something just beneath the surface... The rage inside is dying to get out.....
I feel it when I think of some[one]thing specific. I want to lash out. Like wanting to scream and feeling it just at the base of your throat... You let out a little whimper trying in vain to control the beast....
Bite it back and it snarls.
It swipes at you to intimidate... you flinch! But dont back down...
Stare it straight in the eyes and show it who is boss.....
And if you are lucky...this time you will be the alpha wolf and it will slink away back to its den, where it will wait for the next time. When you are weak again. When you wont want to defeat it, and that will be the perfect time to strike!
And the whole while, there is music.....
Beautiful music.
The soundtrack of your life.
Beautiful
and sorrowful...
but it soothes you...
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